Man how life can be so so hard sometimes

Growing up is all I can say. I guess this is part of growing up. Well, I am just asking you to pray for me and my family as we are going thru hard times right now. I really wish I could turn back time and make all this go away and I would for real never ever done all that we have done again it is not worth it. I mean I am hurting today for my kids, cause they are also hurting from Nick and myselfs mistakes. and this is why I would change it if I could. But I cant thats not how life works. I did it yeah and learn from it now I want to move on.

ok WAIT I didn not cheat on Nick nor did he cheat on me. I know that is how is sounds but thats not it at all.

Ok now that I got that out of the way I can finish, well I just read what I had already wrote and took a little break and I feel like I just need to talk about everything so here it goes.

Me and Nick lived in a huge 3800 square foot house and had everything.... Nice cars, kids had everything and you get the point. Yes we made really good money well, one day that really good money was no longer there. So there we were in a huge house paying 1200 dollars a month, plus everything else. So once we had no money coming in then we had to move out cause we were 3 months behind and soon the bank was fixing to take it. So here we are a family of 5 no income and how you going to find something else when you have no income so we moved in with Nicks mom, and stayed for several months until we got jobs and money to get on our feet again. Well the whole time Nicks dad took over payments of our other house cause he built it and had so much money in it didnt just want the bank to take it. Well, a year later we are even worse. Fixing to lose my truck and doing good to pay bills. So needless to say very hard times. Well Nicks dad has once again talked Nick out of doing anything but running from all this debt and it is getting old. I mean I want more for my kids. Well, I am really done talking about it.

So thats where we have been just laying low. Well, my baby is 1 and her 1st birthday party is tomorrow. Seems like yesterday I was going into early labor and so worried...

Well, tonight we might to a a cousin baseball game the boys enjoy going. Then we have to get things ready for the party tomorrow. In the morning I am hoping to just go pick up the cake then head to Nicks dads place. So I am really hoping for a happy happy day. Well, I am off to try and clean the house some. And then cook supper hopefully Nick will be here around 5 and not have to work to late. but who knows.....

Here is Brennon and Brooklyn at Nashville Shores waiting in line to get something to drink

the princess in the pool with daddy!!!!

me and Nick in the pool

Braxton riding the seal in the water

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROOKLYN RENEE

YEP THATS RIGHT MY BABY GIRL IS 1 TODAY, AND I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT. WELL WE STARTED OFF THE DAY EARLY AND YEAH SHE STARTED IT OFF WITH COME CAKE. SHE HAD TO GO AHEAD AND DO IT CAUSE NICK HAD TO WORK. I DONT THINK SHE WAS UPSET AT ALL SHE ENJOYED IT. AS YOU CAN SHE THE PRINCESS GOT A PINK CAKE. WELL NOW SHE IS TAKING HER NAP SO IT IS MY TURN TO GET SOME CLEANING DONE BUT I HAVE ALOT MORE PICTURES AND I WILL POST THEM LATER TONIGHT, YESTERDAY WE WENT TO NASHVILLE SHORES AND HAD A BLAST.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL, MOMMY LOVES YOU SO SO MUCH...........

busy busy

Busy busy is what we will be the nest several days. So things have been really calm just taking Braxton to school then picking him up and then back home to hang out. So, and now well Braxton only has school one more day and then he gets a 3 day weekend. Friday they are out of school and Braxton is super happy. So, all day tomorrow we are getting things ready for another yard sale yeah I know but man I have to get all this stuff out of my garage. So, after this sale I will be taking what I have left to the Goodwill. So, Friday morning we will do yard sale and we are planning on after lunch stopping yard sale and doing some family fun cause Nick has been off.... So, I am really looking forward to these next couple days.... So, the health of my kids is getting better and I am thinking the Lord everyday for this. Brooklyn is getting over the 5th disease rash finally going away and the staph is almost gone but she is still on meds and we will finish them and hopefully she will be good after this. Brennon had no headaches today and I am very happy, so I am hoping that the med is starting to work and help him now. Braxton is great and really liking school or so it seems like it to me. Well, now on to me, I went to the dr today and I had blood work done so waiting on it to come back and hopefully we cant find out some answers to why I am feeling like this. So I am nervous but I am ready to fix what ever is wrong. Nick is laying beside me and finally sleeping he went to work with his dad and when he got home around 6 he felt awful and it only got worse as the night went one. So I think he is getting sick which really sucks cause he really does not take being sick well cause he is really never sick. So we will see how he does when he gets up in the morning. I am praying he gets a good night sleep.
So great news.... The boys have had a twin size bed but it really was not big enough for both of them and plus they never want to sleep upstairs so me and Nick always let them just let them sleep in the floor of our room. So we got a full size bed and we finally got it put up in the room and I went and bought a new sheet so we got home and I took them both up there. And I told them no crying no yelling for mommy and no getting up unless you have to potty. yall are big boys now so from now on u both are sleeping in ur own room, so I came to my bed and when I woke up they both were sleeping upstairs and man was I one happy mama. So again tonight we are doing great and I am really loving this. So Nick alsleep and I have two boxers sleeping on me so I guess it is my turn. Goodnight...
Emily

for real one thing after another

Ok, for real I guess everything that goes on with my kids gives me something to always blog about, but I would really love just to be able to tell you about our day and what all we did, but that doesnt seem to be working that way. So here it is. Brooklyn finally getting over the rash (5th disease), so Saturday around 5pm we took the kids to Nicks dads house so when we left everyone was good, well I picked them up Sunday and we went to see Nicks mom since we were in Woodbury, and so I was outside talking to my brother and April, and Brooke was down with Grammy in her house. So it was getting late so we were getting ready to leave so I go to her house she asked me if I had seen this place on Brookes leg and I said yeah she kinda has a diaper rash and the dr saw it and just said destin would help it. No this place was on her leg and I looked at it and as soon as I seen it I knew what it was. Yeah my family has staph.... And sure enough Brooke has got it now. Nick had surgery on his shoulder a year ago and this is how he got it then a little later Brennon got it and now a year later Brooke has got it. So 1st thing this morning after taking Braxton to school I call the dr knowing that our normal dr was on vacation, so I was like ok we just to be seen by anyone. And yep that is what my baby has, so the doc cut it open and drained it. Yes it was so so painful for her. I have seen this done to Nick several times and man I wanted to cry seeing it happen to him so here I was holding my princess down and it being done to her, so this was so so hard for me to do. Anyways after that he told me what I needed to do and called in her some meds. So, after this I went and got BRaxton from school and we had to take Nicks mom (Grammy) to Clarksville to a friends house that had alot of things for her since her house fire. So we went and came back and I met her friend for the 1st time and she was the nicest lady ever, she was so awesome and I dont guess she has any kids so she has 2 dogs and they are her kids. They have a bedroom and everything she works from home and on the side soes alot of monogrammed so you got I am going to get things together so she can monogram them and I am suoer excited... I will post pics later.. of the things I get done. Brennon seems to be being some better but still having headaches so we are really hoping theses meds stop them for good. Braxton has been to school and doing good, some mornings he wants to cry when I drop him but he is all good. And is so happy when we pick him up everyday. So a have exciting news Nick is off till Sunday, yep thats right does not go back to work for 5 days and I am so happy. Braxton is out of school Friday for inservice so we are going to have a family day and go do something. Well, I guess that is about it. We got a full size bed for the boys so I am really hoping they start sleeping upstairs in the big bed, right now both of them are laying in our floor on thier bed. I guess that is better than them being in the bed with us like Braxton use to be. So thats a plus. So, now for real I am done. Prayer request...
Traci she is home and hopfully doing good there I have not talked to her in a few days.
My grandmother was in the hospital over the weekend and is now in a rehab center so pray she gets healed fast...
For my family and money I guess not just my family but almost everybodys now days.........
GoodNight and and a Blessed Tuesday.....
Emily

One thing after another

Yeah the title says it all. Yep took the kids to the dr this afternoon and for sure Brooklyn has the 5th disease. SO first I have never heard of this so I was kinda like what are you talking about and what it going to happen to my kids. Well, Brooklyn has a rash over her whole body and the boys have a small rash on the cheeks. So around lunch Brooke got a fever and I got worried and called so we had to go in, it seems like we are always going to see a dr. So they done blood work and after me and 3 kids being at the drs office for almost 2 and half hours. It sucked really bad cause it being Braxtons 1st day of school, so we will got up at 630 instead of sleeping till 11. SO yeah bad mood kids I had three of them. So, we finally left and came home and ate supper and took bathes then it was time for bed. Which I was very thankful for cause I was so over them at this point. Well, I guess you understand I didnt have what you would say a great afternoon.
Now Braxton LOVED his 1st day of school, me and Nick got up and took him so we all went in. And when we got in his room he walked in like he owned the place and said bye mommy. For real I thought he was going to cry but then so so thankful that he was a big boy. So he only went a half a day which was good for me and him. I am kinda excited for tomorrow cause I have so much house work to do that it will be nice to only have 2 kids here with me. I kinda think Brennon is going to be lost without Braxton around but I guess he will get use to it. and start enjoy it. So, I need to just let you know that my bestest friend and yeah she is most likely reading this (thats why I blog is because she did 1st) is having a hard time and I need to have a heart to heart with the LORD right now.
Lord please please send your angels down on her right now so she can get a good nights rest and not feel sick anymore, Lord she wants to be at home where she can be a mommy to Nate and Abby. I know you do everything for a reason but when it comes to this I am not understanding at all. She is in so much pain... Lord please heal her and let her unborn baby make it to be a full term baby.... I lovve Traci and I want you to know that I know I have not been there for you but I really wish there was something I could do for you and Tim...... And I AM PRAYER FOR YOU AND BABY BOO EVERYDAY!!!!!!
Well, so tomorrow Braxton goes for his 1st full day. And I have tons of laundry and house cleaning to get done so YAY that should be fun.
Have a great Thursday and PRAY EVERYONE PRAY TRACI GETS TO COME HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!

SAD DAY COMING....

SO IN THE MORNING IS A REALLY SAD DAY FOR ME. BRAXTON GOES TO KINDERGARTEN... MY FIRST BORN MY BABY. WHEN I WENT SCHOOL SHOPPING FOR HIM I KINDA FELT LIKE I SHOULD BE BUYING THE THINGS FOR ME AND NOT MY FIRST BORN SO I WAS REALLY SAD... SO DAYS PASSED AND I WAS GOOD BUT TONIGHT I AM SAD KNOWING THAT IN THE MORNING I HAVE TO WAKE HIM UP AND GET HIM READY FOR KINDERGARTEN. I MEAN IN SOME WAYS I AM OK CAUSE IT WILL BE NICE TO ONLY BE AT HOME WITH TWO KIDS I WILL NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT I BET I WILL FIGURE OUT AND IT WILL BE GREAT. BUT MY BABY LAYING DOWN SLEEPING KNOWING HE HAS TO GET UP AND GO TO KINDERGARTEN MAKES ME WANNA CRY. OK NOW I AM DONE WRITING ABOUT MY SAD SAD WORRIES ABOUT BRAXTON GOINBG TO KINDERGARTEN. SO NOW ON TO WHAT WE HAVE BEEN UP TO AROUND HERE. I CAN REALLY SAY NOTHING AT ALL REALLY. CAUSE SATURDAY ME AND NICK WENT TO THE RACES AND HAD A GREAT TIME WITHOUT THE KIDS. THEN SUNDAY WE WERE LAZY AND WHEN HE WENT TO WORK THAT IS WHEN I WENT SCHOOL SHOPPING. THEN I WENT AND GOT THE KIDS AND I WAS SO SO EXCITED TO SEE MY BABIES RUNNING FOR ME AND SAYING MOMMY............ THAT WAS AWESOME FOR A MOMMY. SO AFTER I GOT THE KIDS NICK WAS HOME SO HE GOT OFF EARLY AND I WAS SUPER EXCITED AND WE WENT AND HUNG OUT WITH AMY AND CHRIS FOR LIKE AN HOUR. THEN ME AND NICK CLEANED... THEN MONDAY ME AND THE KIDS STAYED AROIUND THE HOUSE AND DIDNT DO ANYTHING. I COOKED A BIG SUPPER, WE HAD BARBQUE PORK CHOPS, MASHED POTATOES, GREEN BEANS AND CORN.. IT WAS GREAT A NICE HOME COOKED MEAL. THEN IT WAS TIME FOR KIDS TO GET A BATH THEN WE HAD TO GO TO BED CAUSE WE HAVE TO START DOING THIS SINCE BRAXTON IS STARTING SCHOOL. SO YEAH WE WERE ALSLEEP BY 9 AND MAN THAT WAS REALLY NICE. THEN TODAY WAS NICKS DAY AND HE WENT TO WORK WITH HIS DADDY SO WE HAD TO GO AND PICK HIM UP CAUSE HE HAD TO LEAVE HIS TRUCK AT A JOB SITE SO WE GOT HIM AND THEN HAD TO DO SOME MORE WORK THEN THE WAS TIME FOR HIM TO BE DONE SO WE CAME HOME AND I COOKED TACOS AND WE HAD TACO SALADS WHICH WAS A LATE LUNCH BUT A EARLY SUPPER. BUT IT SURE WAS REALLY GOOD. THEN WE WENT AND BOUGHT A NEW COMPUTER DESK AND A CHAIR. I AM SO EXCITED TO GET IT PUT TOGETHER. THEN WE HAD TO GO AND GET NICKS TRUCK SO OFF TO WOODBURY WE WENT WHICH WAS OK WITH ME CAUSE THAT MEANS I GET A FULL TANK OF GAS FOR FREE.... AND THAT IS ALWAYS GREAT. SO AFTER THIS WE WENT TO MY DADS SO NICK COULD HEKP HIM WORK ON HIS HOUSE AGAIN. THEN WE CAME HOME SO HERE WE ARE. I AM SUPPER SLEEPY SO I AM GOING TO BED. GOODNIGHT... AND I WILL LET YOU KNOW HOW BRAXTONS FIRST DAY OF KINDERGARTEN GOES.
PLEASE KEEP PRAYER FOR TRACI AND HER UNBORN BABY.......


EMILY

OUR FRIDAY

SO OVER ALL WE HAD A REALLY GOOD DAY, FIRST OFF NICK WENT TO WORK WITH HIS DAD AND CAME HOME AND YEP I TALKED HIM INOT CALLING OUT OF WORK, YEAH I KNOW THAT WAS BAD. BUT I WAS REALLY HAPPY. BUT HE HAD TO GO CAUSE HE HAD A COACHING THAT HAD TO BE DONE. SO HE WENT AND GOT OFF AT 5, SO THAT WAS GOOD FOR ME. WELL I HAD TO GO TO A PARENT MEETING FOR BRAXTONS KINDERGARTEN CLASS, I WAS SO NERVOUS I DONT DO PLACES THAT I KNOW NOBODY VERY WELL, BUT I MADE IT. HE TEACHER IS MRS. CHAPMAN AND I REALLY THINK SHE WAS SUPER NICE AND BRAXTON WILL REALLY LIKE HER. SO I GOT EVERYTHING I NEED AND HE HAS A HALF DAY OF SCHOOL WED, THEN STARTS FULL DAYS ON THURS.
AND OF NOW HE IS REALLY EXCITED SO WE WILL SEE HOW LONG THAT LAST.WELL TONIGHT WE WENT TO MY DADS SO NICK COULD HELP HIM WORK SOME MORE AND WHILE WE WERE THERE BRENNON HAD SEVERAL HEDACHES THEY ALL WERE NOT TIME BUT HE HAD A LOT OF THEM... I CANT WAIT FOR THE MEDS TO START WORKING I HATE WHEN HE TURNS AND I CAN DO NOTHING. BROOKLYN WAS NOT IN A GOOD MOOD SO SHE WAS INSIDE WITH NICKS MOM MOST OF THE NIGHT. WELL, I GUESS THAT IS ABOUT IT. I AM GOING TO BED. GOODNIGHT AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND...